Reason and Rhyme

Paranormal Activity 3

2012-01-22T12:15:00.000+07:00

I rarely go to the cinema and watch those horror movies but last Saturday Night, I encouraged myself to watch this movie. I knew that I would be scared if I watched this movie alone so I brought my brother and yes, he was frightened. He's a coward, hahaha jk bro.

I watched Paranormal Activity 3 and it was...you know. Curiosity killed me and I found out that the movie was startled. Some of the scenes were funny, actually. I'm not recommend this movie because it has an epic failed ending, too bad. But if you want to, just watch it.

I'm not good at reviewing movies but this time I'd like to. And the trailed, somehow, it's kinda different that the movie that I watched.

PS : Toby can drive a car.
Rated : 7/10

A Randomness of Twenty Twelve

2012-01-22T11:54:00.001+07:00

2012.
Here we come.

Started with some challenges to pass.
Illness, pain, trouble, financial problem, pressure, weak, unfaithful, disappointment, lost.
Tough time.

Spent the New Year's ritual at the Island of The Gods, I feel like in paradise. Then back to capital city of Indonesia and faced the life.

For the first week of school, I skipped it. I got my eye problem, my phone lost, skip those lessons and felt awkward because I've never absent for more than 3 days. I reached the climax point, that period.

But then I came back, I was trying to walk through the aisle, without look around. I felt lost for quite some time. I tried, I failed, I tried again and faced another failure.

I raised my hand and felt nothing than giving up. And I whispered to myself, that was only a beginning. I had to stop whining, complaining, murmuring. I doubted myself. For those people who said that the biggest challenge is to fight for yourself, they're exactly right.

And now I make myself sure I have to follow the plot, start from zero.
And see thee.
Smile and laugh, should it be relieve or restraint?

To The End

2011-12-28T14:00:00.003+07:00

We're counting days to 2012, peeps! Time really goes by so fast, right? Sure each one of you have different stories in 2011, I seethat. For me, 2011 had been a great phase. Each day I've learned so many thingsto grow up, to be mature, to bring myself to the next stage (which is harder,of course).

I'll not review all things from January to December indetails, but I'll tell you some of good things.

2011 taught me to handle and solve problems. God createsproblems that can be solved. It's like we're trapped in a jungle, we'll find away out there right?
2011 introduced me to a brand new world of high school. I met new people, new surroundings, new classmates. It was great yet scary. I was afraid to entering a new world that I'm not used to. And yeah, I made it. I entered that new world with a little bit courage and fear.
As I told you before, I made a friend. A group of friends. We called ourselves as GGxoxo. GG isn't an abbreviation of Gossip Girls, but....yeah. I should keep it private. Hehe. We collect gossips and scandals but we know the limits. Sometimes we catch those awkward moments and silly stuffs. Seriously, I don't know how to survive high school without them. <3


Above : Chavvah, Mita. Below : Me, Ilo, Khansa, Mute, Sonia

Without Chavvah

After GG, I also made friends from OSIS 27 & MPK 33 SMAN 3 Jakarta 2013. Pretty long name, huh? By the way, can you find me in this picture? I'll give you 2ribu rupiah if you can. :)

I remember when I visited KL on January. The atmosphere was lovely, my friends didn't expect me to come. I had told Adel that she would be surprised on Thursday and yeah, on Thursday I came to KL. I went to my old school and met them at the canteen. And suddenly they hugged me. Awww, isn't that sweet? :")

I do remember when I went to Singapore on Chinese New Year with a little accident. Haha not a good story either.

I remember when it was the last month with my classmates, X-i or should I say craxident. And yeah, I miss that class.

I remember when the first time I entered a class and it signed "XI IPA B". I am 11th grader of science class. Dude, that was freaky and awkward. There were too many little things that I was afraid of being 11th grader of science stream. The subjects, the class, the atmosphere, the pressure. Everything. And thank you Allah, I passed the tests.

I remember when the student council and MPK (seriously, I don't know the english name of MPK) gathered as unite. We were talking about fund, money, donation about upcoming event. We were stressed out, confused, worried about how did we get those amounts of money (which was really big for a highschooler). And finally we did it! We collected more than a half and I was so relieved. :)

I would like to tell you about my another stories of 2011, but too bad I'm such a lazy ass. So, that's it.
Say hello to 2012! And say hello too to my little sister, Fahira Ramadhani!

Freedom Is What I Miss The Most

2011-12-06T22:52:00.001+07:00

YOOOOO WHATSUPPP BLOGGGG? *another not-good greetings. pardon me*

HA HA HA HA gue bisa gila kalau melihat keadaan sekarang yg semakin tak bisa diungkapkan dengan kata-kata you-know. Sejujurnya, yang gue butuhkan disaat seperti ini adalah hiburan kawan-kawan gila yang menikmati kejamnya SMA dalam waktu 2 tahun lagi. Dan sayangnya, kawan-kawan gilaku ini kebanyakan tertinggal di Kuala Lumpur dan sekarang udah pada bertebaran di udara jadinya kami tidak bisa menggila lagi. Sedih gak? Sedih dong ya. Mesti sedih deh pokoknya.

UAS, acara sekolah, lingkungan sekolah maupun rumah adalah hal-hal yang minta banget dan pengen banget dari lubuk hati yg paling dalam untuk di black-list. Mengapa oh mengapa datengnya mesti barengan? Dude, I have one brain and mind, I can't divide it into pieces and everything needs attention, and ehem, money. So. Which. One. I. Choose. To. Focus.*dalem hati pengen nyilet*

So most of you miss me right? Ha haaaa I know you miss me, you stalk my blog huh? read every update i made, read all those unimportant stories just because you miss me.

The point is, I miss my old life. All of sudden I miss the freedom of being junior high kid with a mall beside her condo, school is in front of, sounds of trains at midnight, a quiet highway and beautiful street lights.

Knowing that every day you wake up in the morning, you know that you have them.

The fact that your parents aren't on your side and you're such a brave and being independent kid for 3 years.

The fact that you're Indonesian and live overseas and your nationalism increase and feel how proud you are as Indonesian. And you present the world by your country's traditional dances.

You take your time every week to go to cinema and watch all new movies without thinking your save money.

As long as you happy, nothing can't be obstacle

Freedom is what I miss for such a long time.

Freedom means you live your life the way you are, not pretending to be someone else

I wish I could relief the pain without release the bonds that hold me so tight.

Hello, Hello.

2011-11-17T01:49:00.004+07:00

YOWWWW WHAT'S UP BLOGGEEERS?!?!

Okay. That's not really a good greetings.

Gosh, it's been a tiring week and thanks God I've got days-off because of SEA Games. And of course, best of luck for Indonesia! Hope we'll grab the medals and be the winner :)

A phase have been passed. It was really out of expectation. I thought it'd be a massive one but the truth wasn't. I'll pass the next stage and just wish me luck for this thingy.
Sometimes I really want to over it, go to the exit door and feel free without something tied me. But I know, we have to finish what we've started. If you've already got in, you have to commit yourself that you'll finish the puzzle and be the winner at the end.
And of course I know, it'll be worth it and I'll get myself paid. What I've been facing is just a stage, a process, that everyone should pass.

Btw, I made a change a few weeks ago. Finally, I cut my hair! If you really follow my blog from 2009, yes, my hair looks like when it was 2009. The difference is this time is much curlier than before. Don't be surprise because.....I look like a boy somehow. :/

See? I told you it's curlier than before. Say hello to the new Afro girl in town, Farah Savira!
Btw, the first picture was taken when I just woke up. So, don't be surprised.

*cheers* *wink*

Just Let It Be #continued

2011-10-22T16:38:00.005+07:00

Mid-semester exam was an impingement for all things bad and cursed. I expected some subjects were good, but in a fact it weren't. Report cards are just the scariest thing for me, currently. I don't know what will my parents blame at me or what are their reactions when they see or they hear about bad scores. I just disappointed at myself and hoping that in the next examination, it'll be a vengeance and a thread for all classmates. This is just a beginning.

Besides scores and all about academic, I feel random lately. People are very friendly and at the same time they're such bad asses. When you try enough to be good, they treat you just like a piece of trash. They ignore or abandon you with nonsense reason and treat you like an angel when they need you.

Emphasis on this part, High School is crap. People in it wanted so bad for an attention and they impose themselves to be invisible in front of hundreds people. They wanted to be involve in something they don't even like just because it's in trend. They want people to care about them and they don't do the same thing to those people who had been very kind to them. Remember, fakers are everywhere in high school. Just prepare yourself for a battle, even with your closest (fake) friend.

I don't give a sh*t to that kind of person. Just let them are and I do believe that karma is a nature law.

Forget about those resentments, some people are very pleasant, friendly, and all things good about them. They hide their tears, they change it into unbeatable jokes and laughs scattered in the air. They make you forget how cruel the high school life in a blink of eyes. They just the way they are and no pretending to be someone else. I feel grateful and blessed to found that kind of people :)

I'd rather make a friend with nerds or geeks or that kind of people than fakers or people who desperately wanted to be known and stabbed you behind.

At least I'm happy in my own way and freedom is mine. Thanks God.

A long story, eh?
Sorry for being aggressively in storytelling of self.

Just Let It Be #tobecontinued

2011-10-05T22:19:00.002+07:00

My thought were running out of expectation, I guess?

After 3 months being a 11th grader, I had survived many things. From extracurricular until academic stuffs, I finally found out and I could describe the situation.

I've chosen top 25 in student council. Hooray! But in another point of view, it'll be scarier with lots of problems to be solved and handled correctly
Since the first time I entered the new class, XI-Science-B, I might say that those classmates are smart, bright and genius. Even their chairmates are their competitor in grades and subjects (super duh). I'm afraid that I enter the wrong class and get the bottom rank. I can't imagine how disappointed my parents would be.
My basketball ability is getting worse and that's why I kicked out of the league and sits in the bench. I guess I have to use this moment to have a break for awhile.

#tobecontinued...

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2011-09-22T00:26:00.003+07:00

School's killing my time.
I miss this blog. I miss posting and telling my personal stories.
Too much stories to be told

I won't be going so far

I'll be back as soon as possible.
I'm in restless mode.
Hibernation is on.

We Are Parawh*re!

2011-08-23T01:24:00.005+07:00

Akhirnyaaaa setelah berbulan-bulan lamanya gue berkompromi sama orangtua, alhasil gue dibolehin juga ke konser paramore! dan gilanya gue dibolehin pas sehari sebelum konser. Langsung gue cek online tiket dan alhamdulillah masih available. Padahal gue ga nyadar kalo gue gaada temen nonton.....

Besoknya, pas tanggal 19 Agustus, gue udah seneng banget pas disekolah juga. Ini pertama kali gue ke konser dan ini Paramore!!! Ini adalah suatu ke-bang-ga-an!!! :D pas gue udah pulang sekolah, dengan begonya gue terlelap tidur dikamar tanpa persiapan baju atau nelpon buat nantinya dianter ke ancol. Mau tau apa yang terjadi?

Gue. ketiduran.
Bangun pas maghrib, pas udah buka
masih pake seragam.
SEMENTARA KONSER DIMULAI JAM 8.
Gue belom tuker e-voucher, belom nge-print.

Pada saat itu gue cuma bisa panik dan panik dan panik. Boro-boro mau nyantep makanan buka, nasib tiket gue gimanaaa kalo gue gajadi nonton?!?! dan belom lagi siapa yang mau nganter gue ke ancolnya. Asli panik tingkat dewa 19. Gak lama nyokap nelpon, bilangnya gue disuruh tenang dan bakalan dianter sama dia. Tapi apa kenyataannya? masa gue disuruh nganter dia dulu ke tempat acara bukber -___-" alhasil gue cau ditemenin nenek tercinta, mbak, dan fira naik taksi. You know what's funny? Nenek dan mbak masih pake daster dan nganterin gue ke ancol. Plus sendal jepit. Itu gila.

Setelah menempuh perjalanan hampir 1 jam, ya dikarenakan jauh dan macet sangat (secara Jakarta yang macetnya gaada obat), AKHIRNYA GUE NYAMPE JUGA. Itu leganya lega banget, kaya orang abis kentut setelah sholatnya selesai gara2 ketahan. Oke itu hanya perumpamaan. Sampe di venue, gue langsung tuker tix dan nungguin kakak kelas gue buat barengan. Sukur-sukur gue masih ada temennya, daripada kaya anak ilang.

Tapi dari kejadian yang menegangkan sebelum konser, gue merasakan hal yang super sangat menyenangkan pas Hayley, Taylor & Jeremy nongol. Ada 18 lagu yang dimainin. Ignorance jadi intro dan Misery Business di ending. Seperti apa yang Hayley bilang, dia pengen semua yang nonton pulang-pulang suaranya pada abis! Dan pada malem itu gue udah sampe batuk dan pilek. Oya! Hayley sm Taylor pake blankon pas lagi acoustic! hahaha. Tapi gila, itu yang namanya keren, keren banget!! Dan gaakan gue nyesel udah rela-relain kesana. Walaupun gue gabawa kamera/videocam, gue tetep menikmati konsernya #eaaa

Itu momen paling bersejarah dan gaakan pernah terlupakan :""D

Inilah cuplikan terakhir pas lagu Misery Business. dan yak....ada 3 orang yang diajak naik ke panggung. Asli itu minta dipites, minta dimusuhin satu Indonesia. dan liatlah mereka foto bareng diatas.....nyilet hati banget. Kutunggu kedatangan kalian yang selanjutnya, Paramore!!!

Dan inilah beberapa foto yang diambil dr flickr.

Jeremy si jenggotan tapi tetep cool!

The coolest girl alive, Hayley! I'm your biggest fans!!

The handsome Taylor!

"Headbanging is crucial" - Hayley Williams

Mau bukti gue nonton? ini dia tiketnya! hehehe ;p

The Beauty of Night

2011-08-11T21:28:00.004+07:00

I always love that feeling when I'm on the night ride. I sat next to the window and stared at the street lights. The driver brought us to almost 120 km/h. Then I set my favorite tunes on mp3 and plugged both my ears with headset, while imagine something that will never happen.

Nostalgia chilled me to the bone. When suddenly the playlist shuffled automatically and played a song that used to be the soundtrack of life, meaningful. The brain got us to the old days. Far far away.

The car sped firmly. We wandered in a peaceful point. It was a moment that couldn't be described. The songs was really friendly at a moment. Brought us to another world. And then, the car stopped immediately, as he snapped his fingers and woke me up in a short time imaginary place.

I wish I could live in the beauty of night.
Perhaps I wouldn't recognize myself.

Marhaban Ya Ramadhan

2011-08-04T23:17:00.002+07:00

This religious moment can't be refused It'll always happen and never be ended.
Everyone deserves this Holy month.
Let's be grateful to meet it for one more time.

Marhaban Ya Ramadhan

I would like to apologize of all mistakes that I've been made.
I hope this Ramadhan will be better than the last.

Fill your days on Ramadhan with good deeds, prays, and get yourself closer to God.
If not now, when?

PS : don't forget to serve your favorite foods. You're going to miss it for a month. Next post, coming soon :)

What was happened on July 18, 2011

2011-07-30T21:18:00.005+07:00

I know it's too late to announce this. It happened 12 days ago. But...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!
I AM 15 YEARS OLD, FINALLY!!
Semoga semua yang gue impikan akan tercapai, makin pinter, makin rajin belajar dan juga sholat, makin normal (it'll never be happened), makin cantik (kiwkiw), makin disayang sama semua orang :3
SEMOGA CEPET BELI ANALOG
SEMOGA CEPET LULUS SMA
SEMOGA CEPET DAPET DUIT
SEMOGA CEPET TINGGI
SEMOGA CEPET TINGGI
SEMOGA CEPET TINGGI
SEMOGA CEPET TINGGI.

Tall is all I needed, for sooo many years. I've been called shorty since I was kid. And now, my little brother is taller than me. And also bigger than me. So........be taller, Far. :"""""D

How about presents? Until now, I've got a novel from my brother, Faiz, The Naked Traveler 3. Well, I love traveling. Like so much. I wondered what would it be to be a traveler, a backpacker. It must be really challenging and also fun. But don't forget to bring camera. It's a must to me. Hehe

Beside that, I've received so many birthday greetings from friends and family. From twitter, facebook, or face-to-face. For those people, big hug for y'all and thanks to remember it :D

Btw, here's some picture to describe what was happened on July 18.

See? Flour was over my head

You don't know how it feels when eggs and flour mixed in your hair
And how it smells....hmmm too good :''')

My cute little cake :3

That's it. Thank you GG! Khansa, Sarah, Ilo & Mute
*for other GG members, thank you too :D

11th graders

2011-07-11T20:31:00.002+07:00

Why oh why am I 11th grader?! It's like time goes by really fast. All I remembered was new things about high school. MOS, 'senioritas', yadda yadda stuffs. And now I saw them (10th graders) have their MOS.

I was a little bit surprised that the class I've got. XI-IA-B. Some of them I've known before but I wasn't close with them. I wish I could have my old classmates, X-i! And I just realized that science class was harder than I thought. At the 1st day, I've already studied 3 hours of physics and an hour of biology. And those teachers were crapped. They had taught me before so I knew how they teach.
Oh Allah, this year would be a year of survive.

Just wish me luck. And hope I can find the fun things. And also, have my own mood-booster. I really need'em. :"""")

Holiday Greetings

2011-06-25T20:31:00.004+07:00

I cancelled my plan to KL this week. It's because of the ticket's price, it's getting expensive. I know this is holiday season. And parents didn't allow me so here I am, still writing lovely post.

And btw, how's your holiday guys? As the opening, I was actually happy about my report book. The scores was increasing, most of it. The most important thing is I've got science class! :D Thanks Allah O:)

My family has planned to go to some places, the options are Lombok and Bandung. But still don't know which one to choose. I like Bandung, but it'll be crowded! I heard Lombok has a great beaches and I was thinking maybe I could bring my beloved aquapix and took a picture underwater. And yesss it'll be great! Let's see then.

I wish you all have a great holiday, guys! :) PS, I'm no longer as The Juniors. HAHA.

Freedom! (not yet)

2011-06-20T19:42:00.002+07:00

It's kinda sad that I knew that I couldn't go to Puncak for my class farewell, X-i. Mom didn't let me so here I am, writing unwanted post (which is not really important but still write it). I want it so bad like I want to go there with them. I mean, it's the last time we'll spend our times together but why didn't parents let me go. I am 14 and going to 15 next month but still they're not trust me.

I haven't got my report book yet but there are no activities at school after final semester exam. And no remedials so those tasks scores will help my scores on report book. I'm hoping and praying that I'll enter the science class. But if God let me to go to social class, I won't be mad. Science or social aren't things that I'm worried about. Just wish me luck!

What about holiday? I was wondering if I could make money or earn money during the holiday. It'll be taking about 2 weeks and I'm pretty sure parents would give me much. So I'll write some short stories then I'll send it to local newspaper/magazine. I know I'm not a good writer either but why not? It'll be a good welcome if the local media accept my stories. I mean, I can publish my stories by novels or some kind of that. Plus, mom said that I loved writing since I was in primary school. I'm in need of money, like seriously haha. For shopping and of course, buy an analog camera. Uuuh I want it so bad!!

While earn money, I'm planning to go to Kuala Lumpur this week. My mom has just got back from there and I thought she had booked a room in my old condo. I don't want to stay at the hotel because it'll cost much. And I hope I can go to KL only with my brother because I know that he want to meet his old mates and if parents go to KL with us, they'll limit the time for play with friends. And of course, I don't want to! Haha

After KL? I'm not sure where will Mom take me. She loves to invite me to join her trip to small town in Indonesia, especially in Java. Currently, mom's working as a teacher for seminars in outside town. And the first time she invited me was going to Sukabumi. And it took 4 hours to get there -_-

By the way, have a nice holiday! And wish me luck for the scores and social-science thingy.

No Longer As "It's Mine, Not Yours"

2011-06-16T01:01:00.003+07:00

No more "It's Mine, Not Yours" title. It seems a little bit, arrogant. So yeah, I've changed it.

And the current face :

#shortpost

thank you for read this unimportant news.

Selamat Jalan, Bu

2011-06-12T00:24:00.003+07:00

Saat itu kami sedang menjalani minggu Ujian Akhir Semester genap. Dimulai dari Senin, 6 Juni 2011.

Aku bukan ingin bercerita tentang ujian ini. Disaat kami sedang sibuk dengan belajar dan stress akibat materi yang semakin padat, berita duka menghampiri kami, kelas X-i. Hari Kamis kemarin, aku merasa ada firasat aneh di kemudian hari. Tiba-tiba saja mangkuk kecil yang ingin ku ambil pecah. Aku tak tahu itu bermaksud apa.

Keesokan hari, aku bangun dan langsung meraih handphone-ku. Ku amati beberapa orang telah menyapaku. Sms, bbm dan ramainya group di bbm sudah meramaikan pagiku pukul 06.10. Setelah aku membuka pesan di hp-ku itu, ku lihat itu pesan dari guru BK-ku.

"Innalillahi wa innaailaihi roojiuun...Telah berpulang rekan kita Ibu Esih Ningsih. Semoga arwahnya diterima di sisi Allah SWT. Amin"

Serentak aku langsung 'melek' dan tak bisa mengatakan apa-apa. Speechless. Langsung pikiranku mendadak kacau. Ku buka beberapa bbm dari teman-temanku. Dan benar, mereka sedang membicarakan itu. Aku langsung tak percaya. Guru biologi sekaligus wali kelasku, sudah tiada. Rasanya janggal.

Kami pun membahas untuk pergi melayat. Dan ternyata pada hari itu sekolah kami pun diliburkan. Aku masih tak percaya beliau sudah pergi untuk selamanya. Sesampainya aku di sekolah, kami pun menunggu teman-teman kami yang lain untuk pergi bersamaan. Sekitar jam setengah 9 kami pun bergegas menuju rumah duka.

Di perjalanan, aku bersama beberapa teman bukan sedih. Anehnya, kami terus tertawa tanpa merasa berduka. Kami bukan melupakan ibu, namun kami hanya berusaha menghindarkan rasa sedih sepanjang perjalanan. Dan ya, aku merasa aneh. Haha.

Sesampainya kami di rumah duka, suasana canda tawa yang kami rasakan di perjalanan pun lenyap. Tampak bendera kuning melambaikan tangannya, sekedar memberitahu kami ada sesuatu yang terjadi. Perasaanku semakin tak karuhan.

Kami memasuki rumah kakak almarhumah ibu Esih. Beberapa sanak saudara, tetangga, terlihat disana. Ada duduk, berdoa, nangis tersedu-sedu. Ketika kami memasuki dalam rumah, aku lihat beberapa teman kami sudah sampai duluan. Mataku langsung tertuju kepada sebujur tubuh yang kaku, tertutupi kain kafan putih, kepala yang sudah tertutup kain dan tubuh terbaring nyenyak.

Itu guru kami?, pikirku dalam benak.

Langsung aku mencari tempat duduk, lesehan. Seorang temanku tak kuat menahan sedih, dia pun mengalirkan air mata sedihnya. Aku masih tak percaya. Aku sedih namun tidak menangis. Aku menatap raut wajah teman-teman di sekelilingku. Mereka menampangkan raut wajah tak percaya, sedih, takut. Lalu ku tatap beberapa orang di sekelilingku. Beberapa guru sudah sampai duluan, ada yang membantu untuk memakaikan sang jenazah kain kafan, ada yang sedang berdoa.

Tak lama, aku pun meneteskan air mata. Aku tak sanggup melihat guruku terpaku di depan. Ku lihat tangannya yang putih pucat, raut wajah yang tak berekspresi, mata tertutup. Dua orang anaknya menangis melihat sang ibunda sudah tak berkata.

Aku semakin tak tega melihat mereka. Guru yang biasanya mengajariku tentang invertebrata, virus, dan segala macam hal biologi, sudah takkan pernah mengajariku lagi. Yang biasanya memanggilku "Vira" padahal jelas namaku adalah Farah, tak akan ada yang memanggilku Vira lagi.

Melihat teman-temanku sudah mulai beranjak keluar dari rumah, aku pun mengikuti mereka. Mereka pun menangis, tak sanggup melihat Ibu mereka di sekolah sudah terbujur kaku. Aku pun menunggu di luar rumah bersama teman-temanku.

Kemudian, keluarlah bapak-bapak yang sedang mengangkat jenazah. Rupanya akan dimakamkan sebelum dzuhur. Waktu menunjukkan pukul 10.30, jenazah pun langsung dishalatkan. Kami berjalan menuju masjid terdekat. Sayangnya aku tak bisa shalat dikarenakan mukenah yang tertinggal di mobil.

Lalu kami mengiringi sang Ibu ke peristirahatannya yang terakhir. Ku lihat beberapa orang pun sudah seperti beliau, terkubur di dalam tanah. Tenang, tentram. Kami pun berkumpul bersama, melihat prosesi pemakaman. Aku tak bisa menangis saat itu, dan aku pun tak mau. Aku ingin beliau tenang disana.

Seorang uztad memimpin doa. Kami meng-amin-kan dan membaca Al-Fatihah untuknya. Sanak saudara membawa karangan bunga, menaburkan bunga-bunga di sekitar makamnya. Setelah giliran keluarga, kini giliran kelas X-i untuk mendoakan dan mendekati makam. Aku terus menatap nisan yang telah terukir nama guruku itu. Aku tatap terus menerus bunga-bunga yang sudah ditaburkan. "Baik-baik ya bu disana. Maafin kami selama ini.", kataku dalam hati.

Sampai pulang pun aku masih tak percaya. Aku merasa sedang dalam mimpi aneh. Memang beberapa bulan terakhir, Ibu Esih tak lagi mengajar kami dikarenakan sakit yang dideritanya. Beliau dikabarkan mengidap Tumor jinak. Tapi beberapa temanku mengatakan bahwa itu Kanker dan dokter pun sudah angkat tangan sehingga beliau tidak dirawat di rumah sakit lagi. Beberapa minggu sebelumnya memang aku dan beberapa temanku menjenguknya. Ketika itu Ibu masih dalam kondisi baik, walaupun memang sudah terbaring di tempat tidur. Dan Ibu masih sempat mengingatkan kami agar mengerjakan beberapa tugas. Tak kusangka itu adalah hari terakhir ku berjumpa dengan beliau.

Selamat jalan, Bu. Kami takkan melupakan Ibu. Kini kami pun tak punya wali kelas tapi kami mengharapkan Ibu tenang disana. Kami akan selalu mendoakan Ibu agar Ibu diterima di surga-Nya. Terima kasih bu atas jasa-jasa Ibu selama hampir setahun. Doakan kami semua ya, Bu :)

Kami tahu, Ibu akan selalu tersenyum dari sana.

-Xi

An Unique Accident Brings A Wisdom

2011-06-04T21:45:00.004+07:00

A few months ago (February, for sure), I faced a difficult one. I knew it was simple thing to choose for most of people. But for me, it was the hardest thing. The basketball team had chosen some people to join a competition; it was called “DBL”. At the exactly same day, my family had a short holiday to Singapore during Chinese New Year, which had planned since January.

My family isn’t like yours. It’s more complex, more complicated, and full of problems. Most of families are also had problems but our family has the different one. And yeah, I had to adapt with family members. I had to argue parents or siblings to follow what I really want. They

didn’t force me to do something but if I chose the different way of thinking, they might think that something or someone has changed me differently. Or perhaps I’ve chosen the wrong environment.

So, back the topic. I told mom. I had to join that competition because I was chosen. I couldn’t avoid it. I was afraid of the seniors. They might think that they couldn’t expect something to me. That trust would fade. I had the responsible to make that trust would be on the right

position. I had to convince them that they could put that trust on me and I would make it happen.

That day, I had to catch a plane. The clock showed that it was almost 4 pm. The seniors had shouted on me, why I had to leave the team when there was a game to play. So then I leaved them. They said that I could ask the coach, if he let me.

I supposed to arrive at the airport at 4 pm but I still wore my uniforms that day, at school. It was a misunderstood. I thought that the plane was about 9

but in fact the flight was on 6 pm. Parents had called me. They were mad, they were angry. Why I should stay at school longer. In that moment, I couldn’t do anything except cry. Pressure was everywhere. Dad told me that I had to go home as fast as I could. On my way home, I cried. That moment when everybody wasn't on your side, they didn’t care about your feelings at all. That moment was the cursed one.

Skipped everything, I finally on my way to airport. It was so late. Mom was mad at me. I told everything that had happened that day. Mom was still ma

d at me. I argued with her. She called the coach that I couldn’t attend the competition but she added a sentence. “The seniors pushed her or threaten her not to go to Singapore”. In that moment, I screamed and cried.

Skip

I finally reached Singapore. I couldn’t think clearly. Two days later I went back to Jakarta. I couldn’t avoid that responsible. It made my heart feel not right.

Arrived at Jakarta at 11am. I took myself back to school. Attended a test that school held and catched that game. The most deplores thing was, I couldn’t join the game. I arrived at that court lately. My family still was in Singapore and I leaved them because of that game and responsible stuffs.

In fact, I didn’t get anything that I expected I could get.

And a senior said in bahasa Indonesia, “nyesel gak lo balik lagi? Padahal tandingnya masih hari Senin. Kalo gue jadi lo mending gausah balik ke Jakarta. Ngapain

juga? Rugi sehari kali”.

I took the wrong options. And I failed my own mission.

From that moment, I started to realize that I have to think clearly. Think wider, what risks I will get if I take that side or another side. I was using my emotion, most of the time.

Remember, emotion might bring you to the right one. But let the emotion controls your mind won’t take you to the right. And don't expect too much for a thing. If you can't reach that estimation, you will take the risk. Accept it with sincere or another regret.

X-i 3-2013. They're awesome,

2011-05-28T23:11:00.003+07:00

June will come in a few days. Another tests would be my partner for a week, no more 16 subjects a year, those best classmates will be separated, no more inside jokes. We're going to be the 11th grader! I almost forgot that it's been a year since the graduation of junior high. I was just thinking that I was in 9th grade.

Being the outsiders isn't that easy at all. Adapt, learn, camouflage, pretend, fear of losing close people and thought you were that weird. Almost a year, I've learned so many things with these people. Look at them

It was started with MOS (Masa Orientasi Siswa), when unknown people gathered around, sit together and start wondered how to survive with a new surroundings. Not to obey seniors' order. We had to make a nametag using cardboard, the girls used rubber to tie their hair, the boys would have an old hairstyle, brought so many stuffs to school.

A few months later, we shocked by the school subjects (which was so damn harder than before). The atmosphere turned calm, everyone was laughing, some of them made jokes.

The girls?

Sonia, she pretended to be Syahrini. I still remembered that, when she was singing Syahrini's songs.
Citha, who loved to eat and finished our foods with her ferocious face.
Mita, who I had known before we started school (since the RSBI test), she's our mother!
Ilo, my beloved chairmate for a year. She's definitely the clever, especially for those subjects who related with formulas (maths, chemistry, physic).
Hanna, she's the neatest and smartest in class. She panicked when she hadn't done her homeworks (no offense han :D)
Chavvah, the class-clown. She loved to be IDP a.k.a Indah Dewi Pertiwi. She had a weird face and the most unbeatable jokes.
Sarah, the most wanted girl. But her thought is the slowest. She loved to kiss everyone, so boys, get ready! :p

The boys?

Aryo, the most annoying person. The girls called him "wowo" because he's likely to be alien. That's the reason why Katy Perry made "E.T" song
Hasnan, the abandoned person. We hated him with this annoying behavior.
Angga, our leader. But please, sometimes he pretends like he knows everything. Haha
Windra, Faldi, Jimbo. BFF. But I prefer Windra & Jimbo. They love glee, they had the same style (like almost everything)
Aji, the most wanted boy. He's cool, like really cool. I'm not ready to mention him. I'm afraid that the girls mad at me :p

And so many girls and boys that I would love to tell you, but too bad these fingers didn't let me to write it all down.

We're going to miss it! After a year with X-i, I feel like they're different. Most of students in other class said that X-i is the most 'pewe' class. Ouh really? :$ And in the bottom of my heart, I would never forget this class. I've been adapted with those people. With their laughs, their gossips and their jokes (which is soooo damn funny!). You could see invisible things here.

What are we going to do in the few months?
X-i 3-2013. They're awesome.

3 in 1

2011-05-15T19:29:00.005+07:00

First thing, my brother's turning 13 today! So glad to say, "Happy Birthday Faiz!". All the best wishes for you, boy. We've known like 13 years and most of my time was spent with you. And a big apologize because I can't give the present to you, due my limited savings recently (okay that's honest, not being so stingy). And sorry I'm not good enough to be your sister. Love you the most dude!

taken almost a year ago. Look, how 'lion' my hair was

My high school principle has left the school. She's got transferred to SMAN 8. And I knew that school is much better than the current school, SMAN 3. But we, the students, afraid of the days-off that will be given by the new principle. He's from SMAN 28 and I don't know what will happen next. I hope it will be better and the days-off will be given as much as it could! And say goodbye to the principle of SMAN 3 for almost 5 years, Mrs. Wieke Salehani :) #astudentwishes

I found this on google. is she that famous?

Tetris is addicting. Thanks, Facebook. You're still have that game. (even though it still in rank 8)

Pa-ra-more!

2011-05-06T22:50:00.002+07:00

Permintaan kalian yang udah fans berat atau yang nungguin Paramore buat dateng ke Indonesia bakal terkabul! Soalnya Paramore bakal konser di Jakarta tgl 19 Agustus & Bali 17 Agustus 2011. ARE YOU EXCITED AS I AM?!?!?!?! gue cuma berharap dibolehin, dikasih duit dan bisa dapet tiketnya. Gara2 fansnya bakal banyak banget yg berebut tiket.

And wish me luck! WE'RE PARAWHOREEE! *ups

"We're fated to pretend"

2011-05-03T22:19:00.003+07:00

"If you pretend to be good, the world takes you very seriously. If you pretend to be bad, itdoesn't. Such is the astounding stupidity of optimism." - Oscar Wilde

A 14-years-old kid will tell you a story about being a pretender. Maybe an adult could give me some short lecture. "You're a kid. You don't know anything"

April.

2011-04-30T19:28:00.002+07:00

It's getting unusual things to catch internet connection via laptop/computer. As I had mentioned before about the modem's broken, it still haven't serviced. Or should I say "buy a new one". So cyber cafe would be my partner for some days.

I just received my report book, for the middle of 2nd semester. And the result? Blah. Bad. Yeah you know things have changed and so did my scores. Pressures everywhere, can't handle the emotions and mind. go to bed around 12 and wake up around 6. 6 hours for night sleep and 3 hours for siesta. and also my phone, it cursed. distract this mind everytime I want to study. Sorry, can't feel the temptation.

April wasn't bad at all. Things been okay, while some ups and downs came. But it didn't make any changes. The situation was restrained. Finally, the old atmosphere came. Feel that 'fused' and I really feel like my current class is absolutely nice. I heard many classes in the generation wasn't really good, my class is just great. The people around, can't be describe. They're great and funny and most of them are crazy.

And also met old friends. They're still the same and we talked about old days. reminiscing. yep. I'm so much missing it right now. Where the class, the school, the atmosphere were just perfect. no one could defeat it.

Have I ever showed my current class? this is it. well, without me. next time I'll post the other one with me in that picture.

Recent Updates.

2011-04-18T20:52:00.003+07:00

Hello, blog. Well, it seems like almost week since the last day I posted something on this blog. The problem is my modem for using the internet was broken. And it was all my fault and I was being such a smartass of technology. So here I am, walking from home to the beautiful cybercafe.

To be honest, I came to the cybercafe to upload some photos that have taken when I was in TMII. With 3-2013 and the lovable class, X-i. And some people asked me where the photo was. and when I will upload it. Yes, I will, darls.

And btw, days off are coming! During the 12th grader national examination, as the 10th grader, we celebrate it by sleep at home. We wish you a best of luck, all twelve graders in Indonesia! Especially for 3-2011, SIK, and azka (current and used to be my 2nd home)

And still, I don't know what to post. See ya ;)

Polisi Masa Kini

2011-04-06T18:23:00.002+07:00

Have you watched this video? Let me explain in Bahasa Indonesia.

Pertamanya gue cuma denger di tv, itu juga dr channel berita-berita kalo ada polisi yg bikin video menggila itu. eh pas gue denger lagu indianya, itu bener-bener ngingetin gue sama masa lalu. maklum, kakek dr nyokap gue pure orang india alhasil lagu india udah terngiang-ngiang dipikiran...sampe2 dulu gue sering karokean lagu india sambil nari-nari depan tv berasa bintang hollywood kelas kakap. ah yasudahlah ini sama saja menyebarkan aib masa kecil :''')

jadi ya, lagu itu udah sering gue denger pas kecil. eh tiba-tiba ada orang lipsync lagunya eh ngakak deh. mungkin kapan-kapan gue bisa bikin sensasi lewat postingan video lagu india di youtube. mungkin. siapa tau. I'm crazier than you think.

Ngomong-ngomong, acungan jempol deh sama si pak polisi! pedenya mampus bgt dah. dan bapak polisi yg disebelahnya, kenapa gaada reaksi sedikitpun pak? goyang dikit aja kaga. senyum kaga. pure lawaknya! (Y) lol

PS : postingan kali ini sejujurnya kurang bermutu. intinya gue curhat doang disini. huft yasudah harap diterima disisi kalian semua ya pembaca-pembacaku yang setia. <3 unyuh

I'm getting crazier.

2011-04-05T21:07:00.002+07:00

May I skip high school? The reason aren't only the atmosphere, but the subjects. Don't you think that we were chasing good scores rather than knowledge for the better future?

Indonesia has a complicated education story. Believe me, it's just making us crazier. We don't really need it for future. Not that much.

2011-03-31T21:54:00.002+07:00

Hey, folks! I just changed my template! I know it's kinda weird and little mess but I'm getting bored with the old. Any comments or critics are very interesting and I would like to accept it. :)

What if

2011-03-24T16:58:00.003+07:00

When you've done so many things to convince people and finally they believe in you, you might be happy, satisfied or probably proud of yourself.

But how it feels when those trust is disappeared over time.

And finally you found out that they were only used your things or materials.

And they could easily forget you without any grateful statements.

And also stabbed you.

How it feels.....

To be some kind of stupid person

And get yourself regret

any helpers or participants?

2011-03-22T23:06:00.003+07:00

2 days left before routine's come back. school is totally uncool. dvds ain't help. plenty of events to-do.

is she tired?

any helpers or participants?

New Possession

2011-03-17T09:28:00.003+07:00

Hello, hello, folks! I’m so terribly happy that during the School Final Exam of 12th grade, we’re the 10th and 11th grader are having days off. At least this brain can have a rest of those freaking school books. But for me, there’s another things that have to do. I wish I could release those things off.

As you all know, the last posts I posted were kinda pathetic and sad. Is that my life so miserable? Duh! Perhaps it wasn’t me who wrote it, it was the other side of Farah. Well, I want to write something that changes your mood about this blog.

Finally, my parents bought me a new Blackberry! I’ve had it a long time ago but it broke so I couldn’t use it. They gave me the white one. I don't want to be arrogant or show-off but I really need it.
And don’t forget my new girl, AQUAPIX! I’ve bought it from my savings. And I bought it for the best price I’ve ever known. The average price of aquapix is above 100k rupiah. But now, I’ve just got 70!

And here they are.

green & blue. what a perfect combination :3

2011-03-15T14:02:00.001+07:00

The girl who seemed unbreakable, broke.

The girl who always laughed, cried.
The girl that never atopped trying, finally gave up
She dropped her fake smile as a tear rolled down her cheek, and she
whispered to herself, "I can't do this anymore"

Source : Tumblr

PS : #justsaying.

2011-03-09T16:59:00.002+07:00

Perhaps I should be disappeared. No one noticed that I was there. I was some kind of wind who just have passed. I was trying to help but they didn't need my help. All I did was ruined everything.

Yesterday was different than today

2011-03-06T16:40:00.005+07:00

Be patient and sincere, far. God only knows everything that have happened. And I'm pretty much better than yesterday. The sky will be always clear :) And I always be a moody-type person so hell yeah those posts that perhaps hurt yours.

Look at me. I'm smiling! ^^

2011-03-05T19:59:00.002+07:00

I told you, forever doesn't exit. forever is over. forever is some kind of bullshit, baby.

Pull back your words, both of you. I won't recognize you. It turns to be "used to"

The rain will be just a failed obstacle. And you were the rain. I'll be the sky. I need the sun to make a perfect blue sky. Get away from my sky, you both of rains. I don't need it.

Don't think I'm a selfish person, because you haven't mirrored your precious faces.

Friends of Mine, the 3Asmp

2011-03-04T23:03:00.000+07:00

Everytime I miss them, I watch this video. IXA, Y U NO LEAVING MY MIND? Y U SO NGANGENIN?!?! :""""(

Let Me Describe

2011-02-27T23:58:00.002+07:00

Have done the UHB (ulangan harian bersama). And I just realized that it was different between UHB and midtest. 3 examinations in a term. The brain's got overloaded. The school books scattered in a drawer. And another descriptions may not be describe. The money's gone. The heart's unhealed. The body's tired. The positive replaced with negative.

The human's sad.

Options haunt me

2011-02-21T22:46:00.004+07:00

I'm tired. That's the best definition of current feeling. Being busy is the most painful thing when you can't focus your mind to choose which one is to be the priority. And I'm kinda a not-manageable person. That was ruined my life.

Here's a thing. I've entered some extracurricular and I thought I could handle those activites. In fact, I couldn't.

First, I've entered English Club. On early March 2011, we'll have an event, some kind of "Month of Language" so we have. to prepare it and hold some intern competitions. And yeah, I have to divide this mind. And if I resign, I won't know how to say to mom. Because she's the only reason I 'have-to' enter this 'club'
Second, Basketball. I haven't followed some events for a few weeks during the mid-test (which is now). But they're 'collecting' some money for the new costume and yadda-yadda stuffs. Plus, I need extra energy for practice. It makes me exhausted.
Third, Student Council. This is so much taking my time. Although I haven't seek the funds for upcoming event, it burns my brain's memory. You have to make a choice. You can't let your friends 'dying' with the seniors. What would they thinking about you? But in another side, you really don't want to do that.

I need to get out. I have to choose which one will get out of my list. Any idea? Help!

Conclusion : They're selfish. You're stupid

2011-02-16T21:43:00.007+07:00

You noticed that you need to wake up. You've been a bad daughter, a bad sister, a bad friend, a bad person. You need something that makes you retake your real character. You've been swapt away and it forced you to swallow the river water. It would be your meal everyday. You ate like you didn't know the disadvantage of the food you've eaten.

The oldies thought you were someone knew. Someone has stole your soul. While the newbies thought you didn't follow the plot. You were not good at act. You didn't wear you mask everyday. You were not used to be on stage. You were not a chameleon, you didn't do the camouflage. The newbies want you to follow the plot, to get in the car no matter what the risks will you take. They want you to follow the line until the finishing.

They didn't realize that you were grew up in a place th

at has a motto, "together is better". They didn't know your duo personalities. They didn't notice that you were someone else that important in another planet. They didn't know the real you.

The only person you thought all day was you. You were thinking how to save a life, how to throught all the riddle without whine and complain, how to find the exit door with the safest way. And the most painful thing that you felt was, no one could ever say hello to you. No one could give a hand and say, "I would like to help you" or "how's life? I think you need a helper to survive".

One note for y'all :

High School's complicated, baby. They're so mean. Especially the insiders. You thought they would have some fun but they're dying inside. They're forced to do it all to survive. Just like when you trapped in a jungle, the best thing you can do is food hunting. No matter how to do it, you need to. And one more thing, you need to fight for yourself. No more empathy feeling. If you feel pity on them, just leave them. They're not a baby anymore. And you'll regret if you help them, you're just being so stupid. They will laugh at you.

2011-02-12T00:18:00.002+07:00

Pernah ngga ngerasa kalau kalian pengen jg dianggep? Pengen dianggep penting buat seseorang? ataupun buat org banyak?
Pernah ngga ngerasa udah bersikap baik sm orang2 tp malah dicuekin begitu saja with no reason?
Pernah ngga kalau pengen jd "part of something"?
Pernah ngga merasa 'ditolak' sm orang pdhl you've been trying so hard to fit in?

4 questions and 1 answer. Ya, saya pernah. And now, I'm feeling it. No one would care. Hahhhh :')

Sejarah tentang dunia basket di hidup saya

2011-02-07T23:05:00.005+07:00

After I moved back to Jakarta, I'm interested to this extracurricular named Basketball. I've been practicing and learning about basketball stuff since I was in Junior High School. It was the most historical moments that never be erased. When I was so blank and didn't know anything about basketball, SIK taught me (a lot).

It was started when I was 7th grader. At first, I didn't know how to lay-up, three-point, dribble and passing in the right way. And then, I learned how to do it and keep practice ever since. People said that I'm good at shooting so then the coach or seniors told me to be the Shooting Guard.

And yeah, we (the girls' team) followed many competition and the most popular were Japanese School of Kuala Lumpur's competition that held every year, on May. I joined it for twice time, the first one is when I was 7th grade and the second is 8th grade.

And guess what? We've never won! hahahaha that's super silly but we have to admit that those rivals were damn good rather than us. They had good physic and technique on basketball. As the Indonesians, we have to realize that our height isn't as same as them. Most of them were tall and "bule" (I don't know in English).

I miss it, the moment that I and my classmates were practicing every week. When the 12th grader were having the Examinations, we (as the juniors) had days off and we used it to practicing. And we have to arguing with the coach, which is our P.E teacher. Especially my generation, who had the most players on the team.

So, how's in Indonesia? I supposed to proud that I've been schooled in a school that has great basketball teams. When I was having the test to enter the school, I saw the trophies and most of them are from basketball cups.

I was interested, so I entered. And I saw those mates were so damn great rather than the rivals at KL. They've played for many competitions and they had the mental of champion. For a few months we've practiced, finally I've been chosen to the team when they had match. But guess what, the rivals at Jakarta and Indonesia are so wow. You'll surprise by their talents and skills. And don't forget, most of my school players had followed the national championship so they was used to it.

Months by months had been passed. The juniors, 10th grader, will be chosen no matter what the reason is. The seniors can't help either because they will have exams.

I've learnt a lot. I really want to improve my basketball skills but I don't want to be a basketball player until I became adult. I do it because it is one of my favorite routines and my hobby.

This it
and...
To be continued...

PS : mata udah mencapai 2 watt pas ngetiknya jadi tulisan mulai ngaco dan setengah2 nulisnya. Sorry, people!

Temporary Moment

2011-01-31T22:41:00.004+07:00

Just watch and see

February, here they come. Every time I say "February", it sounds awkward and has a depth meaning. And it's all leaded to love. Haha. I felt odd to this stuff. Have I ever mentioned before about love stuffs? Perhaps I did, but you can count it.

Someone has magically approached me, indirectly. Suddenly, he crossed and distracts my mind. And I felt such an insane person. But that's what I really want. I'm no longer as a "past person" who thought about the good old days. I do miss past but I don't want to be that involve. Those people who attended my past were not even care about me. We both knew that we're living in the present. That's what we have to pay attention about.

I conclude that I'm not really "in-love". I felt that for an excitement. That person, who blows this mind, was nice. He gave me that signal when I needed the most. But as a girl, we want more. You know, hahaha.

So, what's your point, far? Hell yeah dude, I'm ready for the present. I'm ready to fall and disappointed in another love case. I'm ready to catch the person until the respond came. I'll throw those bad sides, confusion, fear, afraid, as far as I could. But trust me, do not feel like so confident. I would not do that. To that b-o-y, welcome to my mind :)

PS : God, just let me and lead me. Thanks, Allah. I love You

The Stupidity of Me

2011-01-29T16:23:00.002+07:00

It's been awhile since the last post. Have been busy with school and stuff. I can't wait until next week, which is short-days-off because of Chinese New Year. At least there will be some refreshing stuff.

I've learnt so many things in January. A surprising excitement came at the early January. Then it turned upside-down in the middle until the end of this month. I don't know where's my mind right now. I felt like I lost it.

Duh, I need good financial and good scores to cheer me up. I've got remedial test on chemistry yesterday and I didn't know what did I choose on the multiple choice. And 35 on English, I do not understand about grammar. So then, forgive me of those freaky sentences. I didn't pay attention on the grammar. Especially about the past perfect continuous and blablabla yadda yadda yadda.

Well then, WHY AM I WRITING IN ENGLISH? I supposed to be shame, a lot. -_-

I'll blame myself.

2011-01-22T22:14:00.005+07:00

Ignore those fake smile. It won't help either. (Makrab Basket SMAN 3-2013)

Satnite with internet. Yeah, that's totally the definiton of single ladies. Well, in one side, being single is totally a freedom. But in another side, it feels empty. I used to texting with him or even had a call. Hey, what about now? My inbox message fills with friends or family.

I guess I don't have to talk about it. Duh -_-

It's been 2 weeks of school days. Exams came, homework to-do, money went out of wallet. I've got financial crisis here and it absolutely sucks. Basketball, English Club, Student Council, they need attention. Basketball needs money for new costume, english club needs preparation for upcoming events and so did student council (well, it takes more than others). Oh yeah, and of course school. Still running for science stream and scores to make.

I can't divide my mind into 4. Or even more than that. I'm not a manageable person, like seriously. I don't even have some time with myself. So then, I screwed up. I don't know where to go. I can't make a good respon to people. Not just that, I felt like everyone's mad at me and it makes me feel more down.

And after this, I'll blame myself of what I've done. Screw you, far.

Sorry for this "curhat" post. I don't even know what am I saying.

I just, pour this thing that stuck on my mind.

Give me the best direction to go and lead me to the perfect road, please. It'll be started from zero point. I guess

2011-01-19T23:58:00.002+07:00

"Ignorance is no excuse, it's the real thing."

- Irene Peter.

just like Paramore said "Ignorance is your new bestfriend", yeah they quipped me, indirectly.

Her Name is Nadia

2011-01-17T19:06:00.006+07:00

To be the opener, I've just read a post from my lovely friend's blog, Nadia (just click on her name to check it out) and the latest post was about me. Btw, thanks a lot, mba iya, I'm so speechless :O

Btw, I want to describe and explain about Nadia. She used to be my chairmate when we were in 9th grade and she's also one of my best and close. We've met before I went to KL, 25th of December with Syeril & Doli.

About her character and physical, I'm totally envy with her! She's calm, organized, beautiful and taller than me, her skin is bright and close to perfect! But one thing that makes she's a freak is her laugh and an accident that makes her 'unrelaxed' so then she shouts so loud -_- but trust me, she's better than me HA HA.

And we've got so many freakin' stories together. from the "aib-ness" until the unforgettable. And now I miss her! Hopefully we'll meet at Singapore next month. Be good, mba iya :D

Once again, thanks mba iya, because you're not bored at me :p

It feels so random

2011-01-14T21:35:00.003+07:00

It's almost the end of the week, it's Friday. It might be happy for you, who have no events on weekend but for me? It's a demand from the surroundings. And it freaks me out. I've been carrying tons of pressure since the first time on 10th grade. I know it sounds excessive, but yeah that's the truth.

I've visited KL last week. It brought me nostalgia. 6 months took a big change. The Mall's toilet was getting better, my old school (SIK) was changing. The canteen became quiet. Everything's changing. And it wasn't the same as my thought before.

KL greeted me with the cold atmosphere. It was raining. The taxi driver said it was rainy season so the drizzle joined our Thursday morning. No problemos at it, but meet them was the best part of 4 days at KL, no lies.

They didn't know that I went to KL. I said to Adel that I'll surprise them on Thursday. They've thought, "what am I saying?". And then, the boys saw me entering the school and they were surprised. It can't be described as words.

Bunch of stories had been told. Another same problem. But not the same as mine. I have the complicated one.

I hate the fact that everything didn't make me happy, like I felt before. And it didn't support me at all. It's like everyone wants to have some listeners, while they don't think I need it too. Perhaps you don't understand what am I saying, but I know :p

It feels so random.

2011-01-12T22:18:00.001+07:00

I'll post later. It's been a week since my visit to Kuala Lumpur.

A big change, I've seen. And I love when I put those smile and laugh on their faces. God, I miss 9th grade so badly. :( And sadly, I'm alone here.

twenty eleven

2011-01-02T21:45:00.003+07:00

First post on 2011. Well, nothing's different so far. I'm still the shorty farah. Okay, that's an exception.

I'll be back to school. Wake up at 5.30, the bell rings at 6.30, goes home at 14.45. Typical routines for the next 2 years (it counted from 2011 :p). I hope that there's no subjects for tomorrow's school. I mean, the brain isn't excited and didn't ready for it. Also the heart belongs to holiday :)

2011, a year that full of wishes and hopes. Including me. Make some plans might be great. Here's what stuck on my mind. Resolution for twenty eleven :

get taller, not skinnier.
any skills that I've got or hobbies will be developed (basketball, writing, photography, etc)
get my best score and still pray for science stream
looking good. HAHA
have more friends
compact with classmates and generation, 3-2013
money comes to me, anytime I need it :p
a bunch of luck
KL is unforgotten place, with those people inside. I hope that we'll not forget each other
doing positive things
get a place in student council
get closer to Allah, diligently to prayer and pray
someone steal my heart :p (there's no single title HAHA)
get what I want.
diligently to save the pocket money
add some skills
and so on

that's stuck on my mind. I hope that it'll be real for a year. Best wishes for all of you in this twenty eleven. here comes the new era :)

Reminiscing 2010

2010-12-31T06:21:00.014+07:00

It's the 31st-December morning. It's the last day of 2010! And I can't believe that I woke up earlier than few days ago. I spent this holiday much on sleep. It takes more than hour. Well, I want to enjoy this day much better than others. And it takes me to look back the past. I mean, what I've done in this year.

January : been busy with Try Out and preparation for National Exam.

February : got bunch of ferrero's on Valetine's Day. from a friend, dad and (ex)boyfriend HAHA. And stop those weird fight with friends and we're getting closer. Enjoyed my last month of playing, because on the next month, the National Exam was coming.

Ferrero from...........

@ Dinda's B'day. She's beside me

@ School, BOTB

March : here comes the National Exam. And prayed to God to get my best score.

April : FREEDOM! Did some fun activities. Ohhhh I miss it :( and got boredom attack. I've been posted 42 posts. Woah. And finally, I graduated from Junior High with not-bad scores. Thanks Allah!

Behold, classmates! Love ya, IXA :)

@ School, Hari Kartini

Ilegall Family. AAAAAAA MISS THEM

May : been busy with tests at SMA3. I had to left KL for a few days and skipped the basketball tournament at Japanese School of Kuala Lumpur :(

June : Left KL. It's the most pathetic month in 2010. I cried almost every week. Gosh, I'm so sick that time. Memorized those memories that never forgotten. :"""( I miss Junior High so badly.

@ Bistari, bbq party. the last time I saw togetherness.
But some people,they've changed.

2 days before leaving. Bye, KLCC!

July-August: a month of hope. Turned 14, still kiddy. adapted with new surroundings. hey, I am a senior high student! :) and still, galau-ing about KL. huuu

Xi-ers (L-R) : Sarah, Sonia, Pricilla, me

@ my apartment : fifi, yuni, intan, poppy, me

September : Went to Saudi Arabia (Jeddah, Mecca and Madinah) on Idul Fitri. We had umrah and it's such an unforgettable moment :)

October : meet my close friend, her name is Iren. Ah I miss her. We talked a lot and we had the same feeling about....the great old days that we've been through. Right ren? haha. And challenged by mid-semester exam and got the worse scores. :( And celebrated mom and fira's birthday on the unique dates. Mom is 10-10-2010. Fira is 20-10-2010 :)

that's iren, on the left side

November : prepared for my school's big event, Anttic 6th. Because I'm part of Student Council, I have to attend and participated during the event. Unforgettable! And taught me a lot. 12.000 people came to Hall A Senayan. :) And had fun with my classmates, I love X-i!

that
Anttic 6th with crew B-)
@ Chavvah's birthday party

December : got the final semester exam, which the scores are so-so. 80% satisfied. Hope that I can improve it in the next semester. Amin :) participated in basketball competitions (38 cup) and we're the winner! And congrats to Malaysia who won the AFF Suzuki Cup 2010 and Indonesia is the runner-up. We did our best to be the champion. We'll approve it in 2012 :) btw, I met my old friends, Syeril Nadia & Doli. How I miss them!

@ Dinda's with basketball-mates + Arini, on the left side

So here's my 2010. Full of tears and laughs. And I hope that 2011 would be better than this year. And I'll get some achievements.

Good bye 2010, a year that became my teacher. Experience never dies! And for my future, 2011, be on my side. I need bunch of lucks. :)

A Regret

2010-12-29T12:22:00.001+07:00

In a moment called boredom, suddenly I opened YouTube and search about Paramore live in Malaysia last October. AND DAMN I WISH I WAS THERE!!!! I wish that I'm still live there at KL. AAAAAAAAAAAAA

And now there are only Hayley, Taylor and Jeremy. And I can't watch them with 5. :(((

Midnight Babble

2010-12-28T01:30:00.002+07:00

Listening to some fave songs, doing some freak moves, downloading new songs. Yeah that's what I'm doing now. It's 1:34AM when I started to write this down. Insomnia comes alive.

We're now counting days to 2011, 4 days for sure. It's been so fast, isn't it? What I remembered was last year's celebration. I went to Bali with family. It was all sudden. Mom just went back from Thailand, so she wanted to celebrate it at Thailand but too bad Dad disagreed. So yeah, Bali is the option. The celebration wasn't so rousing, just a special dinner at Jimbaran. Still remembered the smells of the ocean wave and those yummy seafood. It's kinda expensive but, it's my parents' money so I wouldn't have to be worried :p

How about this year? Well, we've been planning all day. At first, we thought that Hong Kong would be nice. After checking the ticket, the price's getting more expensive. Mom said that we should find another destination. Then, Mom was thinking that Singapore is much better. She told my brother to check the ticket. And it's kinda expensive too, for my family members (5 person). So we changed the time, Singapore in April.

So the conclution is we'll stay at Jakarta. IT'S BORING! But I guess I have to find the word fun that hiding somewhere. Btw, I'll be back to school on 3rd January. It's going to be lazeeeeh (read : lazy)

A Weird Thought

2010-12-26T13:21:00.003+07:00

People said, there's a day that we called "Sadurday, which means Saturday. You know, when some people enjoyed their Saturday or weekend, the others don't. The others could have bored, or something that make them didn't enjoy it. For example like galau-ing or reminiscing the good old days.

You don't get it, do you? I enjoyed my last Saturday on 2010. It means that 2010 will be ended with a smile on my face. Gathered with some old friends and family, that's make me happy (a lot). It's a good ending, I guess.

Some people might say that 2010 is worst than ever. There's an up and down during the year is walking on. Disasters came, people kept fighting each other, etc. But for me, 2010 has taught me so many things.

In early 2010, I celebrated the New Year's Eve at Bali with family. And guess what, most of my time in 2010 depends on my family. We're getting closer until now. In previous years, I spent my time with my only brother. It's a change.

Do you get the conclusion? For me, all years that you've been through, it all depends of what you've done when you were celebrating it.

Were you celebrating it with friends? or family?

For the rest of that year, you'll be spending almost your time with that person/people who attend in your new year celebration.

Weird, isn't it? Excuse me for those complicated words. It might be confusing, but if you've understood it, you'll think twice about it ;)

Turn On The Spirit.

2010-12-23T20:41:00.004+07:00

Currently, I've felt like I'm easy to get jealous or envy. I supposed to not explain this stuff on blog. But it feels so much lighter when you let it out. And now I'm envy with my brother and sister. They got great scores on their report card. No 70's, just 80-90's. Hey, my report book is occupied with 75-89's. And parents are proud of them, hey how about me?

Being the eldest isn't as good as you think. All things that parents expected, is on my shoulders. And if I can make it right, they'll disappoint, especially at me. Parents should know that high school isn't as easy as they thought. I've adapted much. But it didn't satisfy me.

2011 is my only hope, I really want to remove and repair those mistakes, to make parents proud of me and convince them, I can do more than my siblings. I'll do my best. I won't let them down. I hope in 2011, my bro and sis will jealous on me. I HOPE SO HAHAHA.

Life's a wheel. You can be above and below.
And now it's my turn to be under the wheel, in the next time, I'll be on the top

Disappointment

2010-12-20T23:33:00.005+07:00

Just check out this. At first, I was shocked. Just can't believe that Josh and Zac Farro are leaving Paramore. As a big fans, a big disappointment appears. We won't hear the best drum and guitar rhythms :( And who will be the substitute? I hope Hayley, Taylor and Jeremy won't stop their music career as Paramore. Or....I'll cry!

It's gonna be like this. Awkward? YES.

PS : Josh and Zac, hope you'll find the perfect place for you both. I hope you'll regret this decision, ever. haha.

New Possession

2010-12-20T14:08:00.002+07:00

Mom went to India last week and she brought me this cool shoes. Still, don't know where to wear this shoes. And it's reebok classic.

Je t'aime, mommy ♥

You don't get it, do you?

2010-12-18T22:28:00.003+07:00

Another statement that came out from my mind, my mouth and my school = HOLIDAY!

Are you excited, people?! For me, it's obviously an entertainment story to tell. And when it's over, school comes with bunch of stories. The typical conversation was like this :

A : Eh, B! Kemana aja lo? kangen ya ngga ketemu! Oya kemaren tahun baruan dimana?
B : Oi, A! Iya nih lama ga ketemu, gue jg kangen. Kemaren gue ke Singapore dooong. Sekarang udh ada Universal Studio-nya. mantep loh. Emg lo kemane dah?
A : Ah gue mah ngebosenin. Masa gue ke rumah nenek gue doang di kampung? Mana semuanya lg rese bgt errrr
B : Hahaha emg apes nasib lo deh B

If you interest, just continue the whole story and comment on this post. Sorry for the Bahasa Indonesia.

Back to main story

While most of my friends had planned their holiday or vacation, I was doing nothing. Sitting at the balcony, stealing people's wireless connection and God isn't permit so the connection was totally crap. And I have to wait until midnight comes, when the internet was damn awesome. I've asked my parents. You know, what is the answer?

Mom : Gak taulah kak, liat nanti aja
Dad : Mau ka farah ke KL? Terus nginep di genting highland lagi juga boleh

A few days later after mom's words "Ka farah kapan mulai libur? Mama mau pesan tiket buat ke Langsa". In English, mom asked to me when is the holiday coming and she wanted to booking tickets. As I've mentioned before, Langsa is Mom's hometown. I think Mom's kinda fickle. And her fickle character moving to her daughter. It's me.

I'm actually a weird person, exaggerating small things. Haha forget it. All I wanted for my holiday are a bunch of happiness, a package of photos, a smile that never ends :)

Welcoming the holiday, new year, chrismast, 2011. Ta-daa!

Omegle-ing

2010-12-17T12:11:00.004+07:00

Got a boredom attack last night until 2AM. So then I did omegle with random strangers.

he's french and he's damn nice to me. Btw, he's hot! isn't he?
I am melting :p

we had the longest chat ever, he's 18 yrs from Malaysia.
and I've talked a lot in bahasa melayu and thanks God he can understand what am I saying haha
at the end of our chat, suddenly he asked about my facebook and I didn't give it.
the reason? he's stranger. I've just known him
but he told me that I should add him.
Next time, maybe haha

There's a lot of people that I've chatted and they're not interesting. And most of them are boys. Duh -_- well, you should try omegle. It's reducing your boredom in the middle of night ;)

2010-12-16T22:24:00.002+07:00

The next day after tomorrow, I'm going to take my report book. Still worried about the scores but think positively. Some of my friends still having their final term exam and I woke up lately haha. World is fair :p

By the way, as I've mentioned before about the basketball championship, alhamdulillah SMAN 3 is the winner of Creatore 3rd (SMAN 38) with the last score above 30 and I made the 3-points :D too bad we haven't took the prize yet. We're damn lazy, especially the juniors.

And now the seniors and some of my friends are joining the "Bulungan Cup" by SMAN 70. Have you ever heard of it? I wish them a very berry good luck! I'm still a newbie so they didn't ask me to join them. And I admit that my basketball skill wasn't good either.

Oh yeaaah have you guys planned about your end year holiday? I guess I haven't. Mom planned to go to Langsa, her hometown in Aceh. Meet my family would be nice, but I guess it won't be fun. Because I've got one cousin from my mom's side. And he's around 7 yrs. DUUUUH

Yeah forget it. Seems like this blog became my virtual journal.
PS : I am BORED people.
And here's my latest picture. No one could resist my beloved hair

morning's hair

and

night's hair

compare it, if you want.

Confusion

2010-12-08T23:45:00.003+07:00

Duh, vacation hasn't came yet. I've been waiting for such a long time. Except for the fact, there are some remedial tests that I should finished. Yeah yeah whtvr with those school stuffs. Actually some of my classmates didn't attend today's class. Well, the reason why am I going to school is attending math remedial and I predict that the result was so-so. -_-

By the way, I have basketball competition! pretty excited. SMAN 38 is the organizer of the event. From 2 different match, SMAN 3 Jakarta is the winner with score 30-21 (vs SMAN 49) and 66-11 (vs SMAN 38). Eventhough I didn't give some points, I did my best. Like steal the ball from the rivals, kind of that. We'll againts SMAN 109 tomorrow afternoon, around 12.30. Hope the rain won't falling and the sun won't burning our skin. I've already tanned! *Duh*

For you who'll facing the final term exam, I wish you a very good luck! Hope the result wasn't as bad as mine, for sure. You don't want to get 52,50 on your report book, do you?

And by the way, I don't know where will I go to celebrating new year. I was trying to convince mom & dad to going to KL. But some of my friends will coming to Jakarta. Tick tock tick tock. Give me option, please!

Weekend Speech

2010-12-05T10:32:00.004+07:00

Another greetings come. Finally, I finished the final term exam and it feels so great. But in one time, I've got great and bad scores. 5,6,7,8 is the list. In high school, it's a miracle to having 90's on your report card, especially me, as a lazy kid since 3 years ago (when I met the junior high and discovered that internet is awesome)

And I started to realize that on the first day of exam, the result was the highest than the others. Which means, I've prepared it for a few days before the exam started. And it makes me feel disappoint. I didn't prepare for the 2nd until last day of exam. So the scores wasn't good enough to make my parents proud of me. And I need to reply it in 2nd semester. Again, wish me luck.

Geez, I'm still waiting for the holiday comes. I've been waiting it for such a long time. When you've met 15 subjects for 6 months and you even didn't understand how to make it stuck on your head, you really needs a vacation to release those things that burdens you. How about the new year's eve celebration?
I've suggested mom and dad to go to KL. I mean, I miss my friends damn much. I haven't met them since June. But in fact, I'm bored to celebrating the new year at KL. It's uncountable.

And by the way, 2010 has taught me a lot. To survive with new surroundings and transitions. To discover something new and useful for me. But in other side, I hate 2010. The year with full of drama, tears, anger, yeah whatever.

And I've waited too long for another miracle comes to me. In friendship, relationship, school stuff, family. Seems like I'm invisible for my classmates. Like a parasite, they need me to take the profit. after that? they'll never recognize me. Duh. negative thinking, but that's the fact

A New Spirit

2010-11-30T16:03:00.004+07:00

As I've mentioned before on my last post, I've realized that parents didn't care about which class will I choose, is it Science or Social. Dad said that I have to choose the program based on my interest and scores. Mom's too. She wants me to be a success person and it doesn't depend on Science or Social program

After 2 days of exam, which is today the 2nd, I started to like Science rather than Social. Maybe that's an affect, after pray to God and God is The Fairest. And how about the scores? I've got 84 on math and 82,50 on civics. Isn't that great? I mean, my scores are increasing and I'm 100% sure that I'll not disappointing my parents. It's our duty as a child, right?

I should've thought the wrong way, I complicated all the small things. And thinking too much. That's my bad habits. And after accepted the good scores, it makes me more excited to study. To bring the positive side back. Once again, I would like to thanked Allah. And wish me luck! 6 down, 8 to go -_-

PS : jujur, gue malu ternyata salah gue sendiri terlalu membesar-besarkan hal kecil soal milih jurusan. emg pd dasarnya gue lebay -,- pdhl udh nge-post besar-besaran dan bakal bnyk org ngebaca postingannya. *ya kali ada yg mau baca postingan lo, far. gelo siah*

H-1. Final Term Exam. Science or Social, Far?

2010-11-28T21:44:00.002+07:00

Hey, I've been passing the first term of 10th grade. It means that 2010 will be end in about a month. Wow, time goes by.

December. Equals to horror and victory for me. Horror, to facing the final term exam. And victory, to release those stuffs than burdened. And also, a new beginning for a new year. Just hoping that the positive stays with me.

About the final term exam, my feelings said, "why am I so scared about this exam? I'm afraid of viewing the scores. Shall I go to science class or social?". My school's suck. The passing grade if we want to go to science class is 78. I mean in 4 different subjects (Math, Physics, Biology, Chemistry). If we didn't pass the 78, say goodbye to science class. And that's a 'wow' for me and also a reason why am I fainting.

My positive mood has grown for a week. Too bad the mood's getting decrease on the way to final term exam. The reason? Scared, afraid, fear, of facing the bad scores. Well, one thing that makes me scared much, social and science. According to the interest and scores, social stream is the answer. But, a thought of a student in science and social are completely different. While social is memorizing, science was using the mind. But no offense, I didn't mean to quip the social students.

What I do now is just studying harder, try to avoiding some bad habits. Well, if social class would be the option, I'll accept it sincerely. But still trying to take the science.

Mom : "Ya mama sih maunya ka farah itu masuk IPA. cuma kalo emang masuknya IPS ya gak apa2."
Dad : "Ka farah gak usah terlalu maksain. IPS juga gak apa2, yg penting kan serius"

Just one more favor, please pray for me. Allah, please give the best choice. I know, You are fair. Physics, Math, Biology, Chemistry, work with me.

5 Main Causes of The Tears

2010-11-22T18:15:00.004+07:00

Still remember last night's accident. Dad screwed my Sunday, perfectly. He warned me to study, to remove my bad habit, as a virtual world's addict. I know Dad, for the last 3 years, I spent 90% of my day to accessing internet. No lies. And he keeps saying that Internet is the main cause, why is my scores decreasing. But that's totally human rights. Everyone can't denied it.

I started to realize now. But I hate coercion. Dad forced me to study, to do something. Keep telling what to do. Even Mom didn't do that. Usually, a father doesn't have a talkative character. But not my father. At that moment, I felt like, want to curse Dad so badly.

Resentment turns into tears. When you feel like, under pressure, you can't answer all questions that has proposed. When you're not able to control your anger and words can't help you, tears are the answer.

When you're crying for one reason, it spreads to another reason. For me, that "another reason" are many.

First, missing all stuffs that related to KL. JHS, friends (which is more than friends, they're like my family), the beautiful scenery of Kuala Lumpur (especially at night), my comfortable and memorable condominium, the kinds of trains in KL and also being an Indonesian student in people's country.
Second, I felt like my family isn't controllable. Mom and Dad keep arguing for many causes. As the eldest, you need to keep yourself and your siblings calm. I've handled this since I was 8.
Third, school's totally annoying. I understood that high school is more difficult than junior high. But there's a lot of differences between my old school and my new school. I emphasize, A-LOT. From the circumstance until the subjects (which is 16 subject for a year). And I felt like the stupidest kid at my class, can't achive some great scores.
Fourth, adapting. Transformation, from Junior High to High School. from 13 to 14. from KL to Jakarta. from normal to abnormal
Fifth, alone. No motivators, no friends, no one could feel the same pressure or even care about me. Empty. Sometimes, I feel that the world is unfair. People needs someone to share. I need to share.

5 main causes of the tears. For 6 months, I'm not able to solve the case. To bring the golden moment back. To cheer myself up, not just in one moment, for 3 years. Everyone came at a time, not everytime. I need something that exist for a long time, no ending. Even world will be end, sooner or later. The answer is one, Far. God.

understand what it means?

20A

2010-11-18T22:10:00.002+07:00

200809. A year and three months. 2 months haven't met each other. In the middle of the journey, there's a lost contact for a few days. And it makes me to decide to end that and thinks that LDR isn't working. It canceled.

I miss you, Affin. And that's honest. We used to be fun and now it turns to be memories. Truthfully, I miss KL, the place that connected us.

Dispose The Badness

2010-11-18T20:36:00.004+07:00

High School. Definition? Too high for sure. I've been thinking that I'm the only person who can't adapt for four months. And to be honest, I felt like, I'm the stupidest person in my class. While people got A's, I was trying to smile with my B's or C's. Sometimes, being separated isn't cool.

I assumed that the world's unfair. As the oldest kid at home, all responsible is in my shoulders. My parents aren't as great as yours, seriously. They're still the best. But they didn't care about their children's feeling.

And by the way, November still not my month. But I found myself back, I can laugh as loud as I could but not force to! :) keep your mood's stable, far. Remove all things that burdened you and dispose your fear

Giving Up The Gun

2010-11-09T00:51:00.005+07:00

It's the second week of November. Still, it sucks. Need a plenty of rest, freedom, a peaceful vacation. Have just added my new scars on knee and right arms. I've got them from 2 different stumble and it's representing my unstable mind. Haha. I need a loooong vacation, mother. And no one could ever disturb me.

I looked like an off robot.

consecutive pressure

2010-10-27T21:13:00.003+07:00

High school is a thing that we have to delete on our life. Some people say that this is a wonderful memories that never be forgotten. As a 10th grader, I admit that it doesn't exist.

This week is a tiring week. Extremely needs a plenty of rest. Body, Mind & Soul aren't stable. Can't control myself. Have eaten a lot. Some thoughts that I kept it on my mind and no one could know what's that and it kills me. I knew, it's totally excessive. But, live in Jakarta like this, is not my type. People said that actually I'm pretty good at adapting of new surroundings. But this is waaay to hard. And it will make me as a different Farah.

I don't know what am I talking about. blog is like my secret friend, but blog can't respond anything that I've said. There's no feedback! -_-"

And by the way, I'm a stress teenager with 16 subjects per week which is insane. Indonesia should repair their educational system. To avoiding suicide (duuuh). Catch you later, peeps! And wish me luck for everything and I wish you too ;)

Ps: what the heck is this?

October

2010-10-23T16:19:00.003+07:00

October is a month with chances and surprising month. Mom and Fira's birthday are the greatest dates ever! Mom is 101010 and Fira 20102010. Nice huh? So we celebrated 2 birthday in a month.

After that, I want to talk about the exams. 3 remedial and no 90's. Just 70-80. It's suck, I know. It made me sick either. While classmates are having their great scores, what I do is just waiting until teachers call my name to do the remedial test. Physics is the cursed one, 60. While the highest are 2, as far as I know are History and Germany. While the lowest are physics, biology and maths. Probably social stream is the option.

I have 2 competitions to-do. First is Basketball, on Sunday Morning and second is English Debate on Thursday. Wish me luck and I'll show my best! :) I know, both of it aren't my talent but I'll try :)

Beside competitions, my grandpa from dad's side has passed away last Thursday. Guess what? I haven't met him for 8 years and he's gone forever. So sad :( and now, dad went to Bawean and will be back at next Thursday. Well, I'm gonna miss him.

I wish that everything's gonna be okay. School, Family, Friends, Relationship. October, please end it with a smile on my face. I've already cry for 3 times. And btw, I hate the fact that Paramore has came to KL, had their concert there WHEN I'VE ALREADY MOVED BACK TO JAKARTA. That's totally shit and a regret. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA *biting nails* bye paramore, hope you'll change your mind to visit our country, Indonesia :)

New Layout & Midtest

2010-10-08T20:25:00.002+07:00

What's your comment? Well, kinda bored of the old one. And by the way, wish me luck for next week's midtest! hope I'll get 80's and no remedial! And I will survive. Hell yeah!

There's no exit door. Congratulations, we're trapped for good

2010-10-03T16:16:00.007+07:00

Weekends are too fast. Just 2 days of freedom. And weekdays are 5 days of pressure. It's not balance.
Fever, Cold, Sore Throat. 3-in-1 diseases. Perfect
H-8, mid test! haven't prepared anything yet.
Money, come to me! October are desperately need m-o-n-e-y
Mom's & Fira's birthday are on my list! 10102010 &20102010 --> perfect dates ;p
Abandoning some people might be nice (bad idea)
Became a spy on twitter. Beware!
Can't organized my life properly, disappoint & regret.
Escaping is running in my head. And too bad it's just fiction.
High school made me think maturely and impatiently
Projects, Homework, Classmates, Exams, Moneys, Dramas, Laughs. Combine.

Hey, welcome to new chapter of life.

Picture from here